Friday, March 10, 2017

A Woman's Strength

A Woman's Strength

In her heart  and mind she could describe it as like being hit by a truck, and split open wide, especially her chest.  Watching in slow motion as her heart flies from her chest towards a pile of molten lava.   Then desperately slowly reaching in to rescue it, scorching her hands while retrieving it.   In a true moment of self preservation, she tries to shove the swollen, dirty and burned heart back in the gapping bleeding chest.  It will not fit, her body is rejecting her own heart as her burned and bloody hands struggle to hold it.  She keeps trying, she tries to take a deep breath and her lungs close down so she can't achieve the sanctuary of air to relax enough to fit the heart back into the already closing cavity.  Betrayed by her own heart, body and lungs, she proceeds toward the light.  Crawling, limping and panting forward for help, carrying a beating heart while bleeding all over the place through tears.

Never give up she says and she inches forward seeking healing, seeking truth and begging her heart to go back into her chest.  Begging her lungs to accept more air. Begging to be worthy and happy.  Begging to belong and feel grace. Looking within, praying for acceptance, living to be enough.  Each day, living to change and give back. Anything to make it better. To get her heart and her air back. To live and not die.

All the while she is invisible.

Toni Gomez - 2017

Sunday, February 26, 2017

Trails...and girls

Today the last Sunday in February 2017 I had a chance to go to Auburn/Cool California for more trails.  Today's walk/hike was special... The little grand daughters hit the trails with me.  My daughter is due to have her first son, and my second grandson in less than three weeks and she was there too. It was a special time.

The Quarry trail for the 1.5 miles that we travelled is pretty level and easy enough.  It was a chilly but sunny day and I recall about 45 degrees.  The wind added a bit more chill than I expected but it was refreshing.  The American River is full and noisy.  The soothing sounds of water. Who can resist?

There were waterfalls and little mini streams across the trails. The water was so clear, the pebbles were washed so shiny and fresh from quickly moving water.

I need to get some serious trail and training time in for this coming October 2017.  I am behind in miles for February.  You know let's just say for February, I am a little behind in everything.

 Its is already March. Happy March and thanks for stopping by.


San Francicso 2017 - Belated Post

Belated posts from drafts.  I am having trouble with my photos to my Ipad, old blogger won't access my Ipad pro library... anyway...what was going to be a great new start to writing on the go and when I got the urge...has been...well let's just call it a slow new beginning.  Happy End of February.

It is the second Saturday in February 2017.  I am sitting in one of the best places that I have every written a blog post. I am on the Wharf in San Francisco, California. (Pier 39).  I am at a little wine tasting bar.  I am drinking a glass of Murphy Goode Cabernet.  It is nothing too special.  Where I am now is such a treat, I think even Koolaide would taste good here.   In hind sight, I had planned to finish that post and send from the wine bar to my blog.  That made it so very very cool.  I have done some writing in other places, this was just one that was so nice.  I felt particularly enabled, at my table, in my spot, alone writing.  It was empowering.

What a luxury to take in a familiar and favorite sights and have the luxury to write.

Today is a lovely day.  It feels like I am channeling Anthony Bourdain. (I know ... I know ... don't judge me).   Walking around tasting the Wharf food and enjoy the crowds and smell.  I had food at a popular breakfast chain on the way out here. Big Bear Dinner in Vacaville.  It was tasty and the service was so friendly.  The biscuits and gravy and yummy mimosa was a great start to a day in The City.

I am writing from Pier 39 on its  39th anniversary.  All day long it seems that I can't find anything to bitch about. Everything seems wonderful and I am at peace.   And it is the first stunning and sunny day in a while.  It is so clear and fresh, and it is so crowded.  I would say I have never seen it this crowed.  And I have spent my adult life coming here...But that is not getting to me. 

Upon parking and walking across the street to the waterfront, the smells and sounds became so rich.  The air is a crisp 60 degrees but the sun shines bright and warm.  It is an very very clear day in the City.  The view of Alcatraz is very very clear.  At the very front it the wharf there was a huge selection of seafood. I enjoyed some coconut shrimp and a crab cake. The shrimp was hot and fresh and the crab cake was tasty.  (It was certainly more cake than crab).  But today nothing is going to bother me.

The shopping is wonderful and the weather is divine. I swear, this wine never tasted so good. 
Normally I would scoff at this wine glass...nope..not today
I think I could buy two bottles for the cost of this glass... but 
Being here and looking out on the harbor....
Fresh and piping hot shrimp...
There were tulips everywhere....


Flower Power

Happy 39th Birthday Pier 39.

Coit Tower in the back ground.  A clear view from the Bay
Bridge going into the city.

A very quick and busy day... but it was so pretty and vibrate.

I have been going to Auburn for trail walks and runs...that is where I get my nature and mountain fix.   Even there sometimes I think I see too many humans.  I will be in search of a quieter place.  Somewhere where I can get lost in my thoughts without that many humans.  Not complaints...Humans are great.   

Remind me to tell you a story about my favorite wild Turkey... CT.
Have a lovely and blessed week.  Comment and say hi and let me know what you are up to.

January made me shiver.... (belated)

January 2017 came like no other January in a long time.  It has been colder than I recall and certainly wetter.  The rains came and came and kept coming.  I have zero complaints, I truly hope that those that were flooded and the auto accident victims have recovered. That is always my sadness when the bad weather causes monstrous disasters. However, feeling so excited that my state is wet and green and blessed with water.  

This particular January is like no other.  I feel the pain of the election, so many people are hurting, and defensive, offensive, and this seems to be from most no matter who they voted for.   I have the pain and those thoughts too...but for now, this blog isn't about that. It isn't that I don't care or don't have a voice.  I have a big opinion and a big voice.  It isn't that I am complacent, I have activities and a voice.  Just not here. 

My heart hurts and my soul feels the pain of the divisions, not just from my country, but all over the world.  I only ask from the universe that it is growing pains and the light and love will reign and we will all be happy citizens on this beautiful planet.   I always believe in hope, change and love.  I also believe in the goodness of people to unite and help each other.  We have it in us, we all have it inside.   I also trying and watching and correcting my comments, my tone, my hurtful comments, after all it begins within each of us.  

Silence is golden and Spring is coming.

January has been cold and it was remarkably beautiful here in Northern California.   Living in the Valley near the Sierras is a blessing that I am  always eternally grateful.   We don't get snow but on some days we had sunshine, to clouds, to rain, hail, and rainbows all in a few hours.  On my commute home I can see the snow covered Sierras shining brightly with the glow of the sunset.  My view doesn't last long as I have to turn soon after it all comes into view, so I make sure that I never miss that wonderful show that Mother Earth gives me each day.



And I have been busy!  I have been cooking and even knitting.  This past Sunday was my youngest Granddaughter's birthday and I got to make some quiche, baby quiche, bread and a lovely little poncho.  I can't wait to see her wear it.  

This is the week that I have to get out and get moving.... Marathon training 2017 begins.  I have a plan, this week is just a bunch of one mile jogs to get used to the fact that I have a lot of miles to add to my running.

I am excited about a few knitting projects.  My Gigantico Blanket project with my friend, and a lovely shawl/wrap for me. 

Birthday cooking and knitting.
It is fun to be busy cooking... especially for a special girl.


 Some "other" Bread.... (February)


Wednesday, January 11, 2017

Hello 2017 ....

Hello and Happy New Year.  

I ran out the old year  with my Newbie Trail Run.  So it was the perfect way to ring in the New Year.  January 1, 2017 found me retracing my steps  from December 18, with a longer distance and a shorter time. Yes...  The Hills really are alive with the sound of... everything.  Thank goodness it was not as cold this time.  But I also didn't stop for pictures.  (See last blog post). There were actually little differences except the dam was not as vigorous....

Until the floods of January 2017.  If you get a chance check out the Dam at Lake Clementine, Auburn CA now.   While we need the rain I know of many that have property loss, Damage, and couldn't even get to work for the eroded roads and flooding.   I send my best thoughts and wishes and prayers.   I wish that Mother Nature could learn a bit of balance...but I suppose she is only as nutty as.... Me.
What the heck is balance anyway....?

2017 - ask?  Not really but no resolutions is no reason to NOT TRY.

So more healthy living, Yoga, Run, Walk,  Smile, Write, Read, less fat, less carbs, less wine...and a nice fresh fridge full of veggies.  So far this year has me making Asian foods.  Anyway possible to get those nutrient rich veggies into the body.    I made Thai Pad, two difference versions of fried rice, Chow mein, Jerk Chicken and fresh green beans.  Not in the same meal.     The new year has me consuming less, buying less and just focusing on family and my violin.

More violin and soap news soon...

Peace and love and just keeping being beautiful.

Less words and more pictures soon. 

Sunday, December 18, 2016

Newbie Trail Run - One year anniversary Trail Run - MRTT

I run / hike with a local chapter of Mothers Run This Town (MRTT).   I have been enjoying events and getting back into running with this local group for over a year now.  It is the Roseville/Rocklin chapter.  My daughter is very involved as as she is an Ultra Runner and this is one of six Newbie Trail Runs that she has hosted.    We have had over 70 show up on occasions.  This is the anniversary of the trail run.  (Remind me in another post to post some amazing pics of my daughter and her trail and running accomplishments).

What is a newbie trail run?  It is a beginning level trail run 4-5 miles for all levels of runners. Many of the ultra runners assist us, as well as marathon runners, and avid runners, jogs, and power walkers.  We get into groups and we take off.  Usually at the crack of dawn and we run, jog, walk to the sunrise.  

The group is an amazing group.  Everyone is so supportive and kind.  I am so happy to be a part of this wonderful society of women.  If you are interested, look for a local chapter and join in, usually you can find them on Facebook, the groups are private.  It is woman only group, but you don't have to be a mom, you can be a SRTT (She Runs This Town).    With the support of this group I was able to get back into running this past year, and run several 5K races, some official and some on my own.  I did not meet my goal of 200 miles this year, but I got a good 150  and that is about 100 more than last year. 

 *note for the guys, in some areas the husbands, boyfriends etc, join a group for men.  I don't know what it is called...something like Dad Run the town/ He runs the town.

We had about 21 show up, which is not bad on the Sunday before Christmas.  Many waking up at 5 am, driving in the fog to the mountains, about 25 minutes away for most of us, to go out on a 29 degree day and freeze our butts off.  The pay off is rich, the sounds of the rushing river, the smell of the green moss, the fog lifting as the sun rises, and the beautiful dam at Lake Clementine, Auburn, California. 

 We ran under the Foresthill Bridge. It was most lovely and very very tall.  The hike was about 4.7 miles total.  It was all uphill to the dam and all down hill on the way back.  I would rate the trail and safe for beginners, it was not treacherous.  There are a lot of rocks and some little muddy streams to navigate, but that is the fun of the trails.  No need for speed.  It is also a way to burn off 950 calories before 9 am.  It was 797 feet of elevation gain, to about 952 elevation, so nothing too steep, but a nice work out.

What a wonderful way to get away from the hustle and bustle, post election, social media, and holiday frenzy.  Not complaining about the beautiful world that we live in, just saying it is nice to get away. 

Happy Week before Christmas, I hope you enjoy the serene and beautiful pictures from todays's hike. 

Friday, December 9, 2016

A Christmas Memory 2016 - Abigail and Amelia

Last Sunday the girls were over.   The girls are my grand daughters Abigail and Amelia.  I had recorded Santa Claus is coming to town a few weeks prior and I was saving it to watch with them.   I should have know it was "ok" to watch, but to be sure I had wanted to watch for myself.  I relished the show as a child and it has been many many years since I saw it, I didn't quite remember much about it except the song, and ironically, the wizard guy.  I wasn't sure in my memory if that guy was a good guy or a bad guy, and just how bad could be?

Well, the girls and I watched Frosty the Snowman for the second time and I decided to take a risk and watch "Santa Claus is Coming to Town" with them.  I mean I survived it, but then again, I survived hose water. (Gasp)

Oh it was a true delight.  It tells the story of a baby orphaned, and he is adopted to be Chris /Kris Kringle, and later becomes Santa Claus.  The story is truly wonderful and wonderfully narrated by Fred Astaire.  The girls being ages 5 and almost 3 were mesmerized from very beginning. 

I always wonder how much of the story they "get."   Well, not with Miss Abby as she is older and she doesn't miss anything.  Then I just sat and watched with them and waited for the gals comments  as Chris / Kris grew up to become Santa.  At first he was young and clean shaven, over time he got a red beard.  It was Abby who first said, "is he Santa yet?"    

I knew for sure then that she knew what was going on and had been carefully following the plot.  Later the beard becomes fuller and longer and Abby gets even more excited..."is he Santa yet?"  Amelia was sitting with her in the rocking chair and was following  the story closely.  And then there is grey hair in Chris/Santa's beard, the excitement in the room was measurable. 

And then, there was the first scene were we finally get to see white hair Santa, the transformation from Chris/ Kris to Santa.  The cutest thing to behold was Abby leaning forward to watch intently as Santa had arrived.  What I did not expect was to see Amelia stand up in the chair and start cheering and clapping for Santa.  It was the cutest thing I have ever seen.

And so far this year that is my Christmas Miracle.  The simple joy of innocence and the joy of believing in Santa Claus.