Wednesday, May 24, 2017

What is happening - chatty blog post

Hello out there...

What is new?

Violin Bow News:   I have a lovely new Holstein II wooden violin bow.  I got it from the Fiddlershop in Florida. Feel free to comment or ask questions and I  can give you more details.  And here is the link. MY New Bow.   I enjoy this wondrous and beautiful bow more than I can express.   I got to try a few bows before I made up my mind.  That was quite an experience.  And she looks pretty with my violin as well, that is just a bonus.


I have been making some soap.  I made some lovely bars for Mothers Day for my family of mom's... (mom, sister, daughter, nieces..).  That particular batch had the best sweet smell.  It is Black Raspberry with vanilla hints.










  Facebook Page.  Then I did some catch up soap making for sale to my office.  Once people use it, they don't necessarily want other soap.   I also do plan to debut some soap for sale in the "shop" officially to the Home Goods By Toni Customers.   June!!!


My violin time has been limited, so I go home at lunch to play as this usually gives me 30 minutes.  But then I have to be careful with time.  I am also at home and it takes focus not to wash a dish or do a little clean up while I am home on break... I get so distract.. OH I have a plant to water, oh what can I put in the crock pot.  AND.... I don't have any real violin projects going.  I need to review what I need to work on, and what I want to play. I am ready to learn something lovely and soul stirring.  Perhaps something classical or something from my Beatles song book. Any suggestions?

In my kitchen, there is still bread making and then there is research.  oh yes...  Chinese dumplings.  I don't make them, I rarely have ever eaten them.  They are my new obsession.  So I will end this post and hit up Amazon for bamboo dumpling steamers.   I am looking to make something simple, of the round style Chinese dumplings with Pork, cabbage and ginger.    And anything that is Weigh Watcher somewhat friendly is better.  And as always homemade is better for me too.

Happy Wednesday to all.

PS.  I love all the private messages, but feel free to chat it up here on the blog too.   I find often it is nice to share here and just ignore some of the other social network venues.  Blogging feels old fashioned and more safe...I guess that sounds silly.


Saturday, May 20, 2017

Weight Watcher Food doesn't have to be boring....

























Well... and then there is bread......
Three Strand Challah Bread for Mothers Day.  It turned out great.
















And the usual Sour Dough









Monday, May 15, 2017

Sometimes

Sometimes Life

Seems to be a series.
A series of dots.
Connect the dots.
This dot to that.
Rush.

All the while...
Traveling to the next dot
Taking cell pics, selfies
Rushing Rushing.
Zoom.

We made it, hurry
Posts the pics, recharge
devices and zoom off
To the next dot.
Wonder.

And we just repeat.
Our goal, we made it..
Now post more pics
Loosing precious moment.
Truth

We loose our moments
Only to preserve a moment.
We miss to preserve
And loose new memories.
Grasp

As we zoom to the next dot,
We check for feedback,
As we take more pics,
Sometimes we loose time.
Aware

Sometimes life...

TCG2017

Friday, May 12, 2017

Rock Bottom

Rock Bottom.
I have always thought of it in terms of addiction.  The very worst that could happen til the next thing that happens.  So lost your wife, or lost your home, living on the street, stole to get drugs.

Tonight I am thinking of bottom line.  What is a bottom line? Is it how many times we let someone do something to us? How late we pay a bill before getting a late fee?  How many more times we will let someone say something to us before we stop it, or drop them as a friend.

How many times we accept less than adequate before we make a demand. 

I found the two terms to be a like. I spent time tonight thinking of what all the rock bottoms would be in my life.  Does one know the rock bottom before its there? Bottom line, do we only make them in difficult situations? Do we make them in advance.  Like the planners and doers in life.

Just got me thinking.  It turned out that thinking about rock bottom and bottom line is product.  Write some down. Analyze them, and then check back to see...did you stand your ground or did they become changing...did the bottom and bottom line go lower. Was it set to low.

Feedback and thoughts?  And these bottom topic can apply to anything.

I would love to discuss. Please feel fee to comment.

Friday, May 5, 2017

Here

Tall cool trees stand in truth
Drought, disease, flood
I am here.

Crevices in the earth
Mountains that erupt
I am here.

Swaddled babies
Crooked smile school pics
I am here.

Phone in hand
Decades of life
I am here.

Memorial and grief
The trace I left 
I was here.

Thursday, May 4, 2017

Under a microscope

Living under a microscope
What food?
What parenting choices?
And who to spend time with...

Staying silent for peace
World, political or social?
What is in that Latte?

What are you watching,
Reading, drinking?
Post don't post
Feel, don't feel.

Fight, don't fight.
The hours fly by 
As the seasons do...
To be heard.

To be heard
Without hurting.
To speak without damage.
Care, don't care.

Let go of hurt,
Learn to grow with change.
Let the out of control
Shape into peace.

Toni C. Gomez 2017

Friday, April 28, 2017

Friday Chit Chat and activities

Today was a nice day off from the office.  

I spun wool, and wound some wool.   

I had nice coffee with some yummy eggs.  

I just sit here thinking... it is 8:53.  What can I do?  I am a lucky person to have so many things to do.  I crave the quiet.  I haven't played much music today.  I listened to a friend or two online.  No tv on.  Isolation and quiet.  I think it is nice.  I also saw that many activities I posted on Facebook. 

I am thinking now.. "I think I will do some reading... something positive...AND I will share it with Facebook..." and then I listen to what I said, I see what I do.   Nothing wrong with it.  Somehow it seems we connect well to like friends on Facebook and people seem to enjoy what we do, and we inspire each other. It was just a thought.   But it got me thinking.  (Oh no....) 

I wonder if I do something wonderful and positive tonight that I will be the person that it is good enough to share with. Keep it to myself, consider myself worthy to be my own company.  I actually am more introverted, I think Facebook allows us introverts to be extroverted in the social media sense.

I wonder if that conflicts with our introverted tendencies.... I wonder if our brain or soul is saying..."look at that, or oh my where did all that come from?"  What is the ego saying... "yahoo.... look at me now.?"    I am not sure.   I know there are studies and I could find out what is going on, and what the professionals are saying will happen as a result of all this social media.

I know that my great great grandchildren won't have to go to Ancestry.com to know about me.  Well .... is that Facebook personality the real person?  After all, I don't put out my strong political opinions, I don't put out my spiritual cravings or tendencies, I don't talk about too many horrors.  I seem to like it better when I write something nice and positive.

But .... is life really that positive?  Yes, it is.   Does it feel that way all the time?  No, but actually it is.. but we have struggles and tears and such pain, but we woke up today.  Air filled our lungs.

Anyway those are my thoughts tonight, nothing too deep or profound.  Just my thoughts on what social media is and isn't.   Do we post and share our deep struggles and truths on social media? Or do we keep it light and fluffy.  


Facebook... to just connect, see some relatives, and funny youtubes, recipes, how to's, get marketed by google and amazon, read healthy articles, read unhealthy articles, see people do odd things, good things, see places, see art, hear music, see what is going on in the world and see what our friends do, hear good news, hear bad news. 

Ha Ha at least we are no longer slaves to a land line phone that would ring all the time. :)

It certainly does bring it all to one place... remember all those emails from all those Yahoo groups.. that got out of control.  Now at our fingertips..on our phone.

Happy Saturday as it is fast approaching.   Tell me what's on your mind... feel free to leave a comment here, or as many of you do, message me. :) 

Tuesday, April 25, 2017

WTF - by Laura Foley - Review

WTF - A review by Toni

When I was offered the chance to review and present this book, I actually didn't read all the information that was sent to me.  I just was ready to read something and talk about it  here.  I even got all the author information and pics set in my blog in advance without really knowing what I was going to read.  I planned to read it when I read the book.

I am not always good with understanding poetry, poetic "stuff."  Sometimes it has to be spelled out for me. Usually when it is broken down for me then I am in heaven and in love with it.  I love to glean and appreciate human experience from poetry.  Other times, the poetry, it actually speaks to me and from the beginning and I feel blessed.

I don't really know "how to review poetry."Sometimes I agree to review it to force myself to indulge, experience and enjoy.   Here is my experience with this collection.  (Long intro........)

THE REVIEW
I read this collection in one sitting.  I made a little post-it note for each poem  and stuck it  on my Ipad as I read.  Jotting down a little note after each entry, was just the perfect pause I needed after each piece.   I was deeply moved by this collection of memories and feelings.  It is the first I have read from Laura Foley.    I sat for a half hour in the company of her words.  The collection flows from the child daughter to the father, from the father to the grown daughter, to the soldier/POW to the daughter and the past to the present.   It is an honest and brave journey that reaches  a reckoning and understanding.   The sadness, jealousy, hurt and respect swept over me as I read each title.

It was an honor to read this.  Thank you Serena for thinking of me.    Thank you Laura for writing it, and thank you Mr. Foley  for your service to our country.






About the Book:
Laura Foley’s “WTF” refers to her father’s initials and, slyly, to the abbreviated colloquial exclamation, in a pun that laughs and cuts, in this reckoning with a fraught father-daughter relationship. These spare poems communicate more like snapshots than narrative lyrics, beginning with sympathy and gratitude, moving through disappointment, anger and resentment, without ever losing compassion, as Foley examines her father’s formative WWII experiences and, consequently, how he shaped her experience and character, ending with a positive recognition of her father in herself.
About the Poet:
Laura Foley is an internationally published, award-winning poet, author of six collections. She won the Common Goods Poetry Contest, judged by Garrison Keillor; and the National Outermost Poetry Prize, judged by Marge Piercy. Her poetry collections include:WTF, Night Ringing, The Glass Tree and Joy Street. The Glass Tree won a Foreword Book of the Year Award; Joy Street won the Bisexual-Writer’s Award. Her poems have appeared on The Writer’s Almanac, in Valparaiso Poetry Review, Atlanta Review, Lavender Review, The Mom Egg Review, in the British Aesthetica Creative Writing Anthology, and many other journals.
A certified Yoga Instructor and creative arts facilitator in hospitals, she is the mother of three grown children, grandmother to two granddaughters. She and her partner Clara Gimenez live among the hills of Vermont with their three big dogs.
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Tour Schedule:
March 28: The Modern Creative Life (Guest Post)
April 5: Wall-to-Wall Books (Review)
April 12: the bookworm (Review)
April 13: Diary of an Eccentric (Guest Post)
April 18: Celticlady’s Reviews (Book Spotlight)
April 25: Soapy Violinist (Review)
May 3: The Modern Creative Life (Guest Post)
May 4: The Book Connection (Interview)
May 11: Musings of a Bookish Kitty (Review)
May 15: Katherine & Books (Review)
May 19: Margie’s Must Reads (Review)
May 24: Suko’s Notebook (Review)
June 1: Readaholic Zone (Review)
June 5: Patricia’s Wisdom (Review)
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Saturday, April 22, 2017

Our Earth, Ourselves

Dear Blog readers:

 (I know you read even if you don't say much, I am so grateful to feel your presence)

Happy Earth Day!  My thoughts are to celebrate this beautiful Earth and how it clearly 100%  it sustains us through all the good and the very very bad.   We plunder, bomb, litter and it is beautiful and it restores itself and it selflessly gives us life and a home.  However,  this is not a day where I plan to think about the over all picture, because I intend to be grateful.  And I don't want to be sad about our declining Planet and the absence of humanity.

I can pick up some litter, recycle, reuse and donate.  I can make lists of ways to help make the planet clean.  Ride my bike, feel the sun on my face.   Donate clothing instead of dumping, reuse fabrics to create useful items, rugs, pillows, toys.  Use less napkins, less tissue, wash clothes when they need it instead of  just because I wore it for two hours.  And I can pray.

I will plant food to share and bake bread to share.  Perhaps in being close with one another and sharing we can gather and hoard less, waste less, pollute less and save ourselves and our planet through our love.  Hug a tree, hug a human and connect and be well with each other.

A nice walk is in my plan.   A wonderful mentor talked of a walk earlier this week.  A wandering walk with awareness of just being connected. Without checking for speed, elevation, distance or time,  a walk of wandering and observation.  My wandering soul connected to this thought so I will do that this weekend.  In honor of my home, the Earth, I will gather human litter and feel the Earth's thankfulness.

Let us celebrate our Earth today and make a plan to do it the same way each and every day as long as we have the gift of walking on this Planet.  A planet whose goodness is to big to even describe.  

What word or words would you use to describe our planet?  I would love to hear just how much you love our Mother Earth.   And any lists and activities that you do to contribute to the wellness of our glorious planet home.

Peace and Joy.
Love, Toni


Tuesday, April 18, 2017

Foodie Pics...


This is cinnamon roll cake.
 
This is pulled pork with pickles.

This was my first attempt at fried pickles.  Yum!!

Spicey chicken enchiladas
 
This was a cheese chunk macaroni salad
These are lemon brown muffins.

 

 
 
 

Friday, March 10, 2017

A Woman's Strength

A Woman's Strength

In her heart  and mind she could describe it as like being hit by a truck, and split open wide, especially her chest.  Watching in slow motion as her heart flies from her chest towards a pile of molten lava.   Then desperately slowly reaching in to rescue it, scorching her hands while retrieving it.   In a true moment of self preservation, she tries to shove the swollen, dirty and burned heart back in the gapping bleeding chest.  It will not fit, her body is rejecting her own heart as her burned and bloody hands struggle to hold it.  She keeps trying, she tries to take a deep breath and her lungs close down so she can't achieve the sanctuary of air to relax enough to fit the heart back into the already closing cavity.  Betrayed by her own heart, body and lungs, she proceeds toward the light.  Crawling, limping and panting forward for help, carrying a beating heart while bleeding all over the place through tears.

Never give up she says and she inches forward seeking healing, seeking truth and begging her heart to go back into her chest.  Begging her lungs to accept more air. Begging to be worthy and happy.  Begging to belong and feel grace. Looking within, praying for acceptance, living to be enough.  Each day, living to change and give back. Anything to make it better. To get her heart and her air back. To live and not die.

All the while she is invisible.

Toni Gomez - 2017

Sunday, February 26, 2017

Trails...and girls

Today the last Sunday in February 2017 I had a chance to go to Auburn/Cool California for more trails.  Today's walk/hike was special... The little grand daughters hit the trails with me.  My daughter is due to have her first son, and my second grandson in less than three weeks and she was there too. It was a special time.

The Quarry trail for the 1.5 miles that we travelled is pretty level and easy enough.  It was a chilly but sunny day and I recall about 45 degrees.  The wind added a bit more chill than I expected but it was refreshing.  The American River is full and noisy.  The soothing sounds of water. Who can resist?

There were waterfalls and little mini streams across the trails. The water was so clear, the pebbles were washed so shiny and fresh from quickly moving water.

I need to get some serious trail and training time in for this coming October 2017.  I am behind in miles for February.  You know let's just say for February, I am a little behind in everything.




 Its is already March. Happy March and thanks for stopping by.
Toni
 
 

 

San Francicso 2017 - Belated Post

Belated posts from drafts.  I am having trouble with my photos to my Ipad, old blogger won't access my Ipad pro library... anyway...what was going to be a great new start to writing on the go and when I got the urge...has been...well let's just call it a slow new beginning.  Happy End of February.

It is the second Saturday in February 2017.  I am sitting in one of the best places that I have every written a blog post. I am on the Wharf in San Francisco, California. (Pier 39).  I am at a little wine tasting bar.  I am drinking a glass of Murphy Goode Cabernet.  It is nothing too special.  Where I am now is such a treat, I think even Koolaide would taste good here.   In hind sight, I had planned to finish that post and send from the wine bar to my blog.  That made it so very very cool.  I have done some writing in other places, this was just one that was so nice.  I felt particularly enabled, at my table, in my spot, alone writing.  It was empowering.

What a luxury to take in a familiar and favorite sights and have the luxury to write.

Today is a lovely day.  It feels like I am channeling Anthony Bourdain. (I know ... I know ... don't judge me).   Walking around tasting the Wharf food and enjoy the crowds and smell.  I had food at a popular breakfast chain on the way out here. Big Bear Dinner in Vacaville.  It was tasty and the service was so friendly.  The biscuits and gravy and yummy mimosa was a great start to a day in The City.

I am writing from Pier 39 on its  39th anniversary.  All day long it seems that I can't find anything to bitch about. Everything seems wonderful and I am at peace.   And it is the first stunning and sunny day in a while.  It is so clear and fresh, and it is so crowded.  I would say I have never seen it this crowed.  And I have spent my adult life coming here...But that is not getting to me. 

Upon parking and walking across the street to the waterfront, the smells and sounds became so rich.  The air is a crisp 60 degrees but the sun shines bright and warm.  It is an very very clear day in the City.  The view of Alcatraz is very very clear.  At the very front it the wharf there was a huge selection of seafood. I enjoyed some coconut shrimp and a crab cake. The shrimp was hot and fresh and the crab cake was tasty.  (It was certainly more cake than crab).  But today nothing is going to bother me.

The shopping is wonderful and the weather is divine. I swear, this wine never tasted so good. 
Normally I would scoff at this wine glass...nope..not today
I think I could buy two bottles for the cost of this glass... but 
Being here and looking out on the harbor....
Fresh and piping hot shrimp...
There were tulips everywhere....

PEACE BABY!


Flower Power


Happy 39th Birthday Pier 39.


Coit Tower in the back ground.  A clear view from the Bay
Bridge going into the city.





A very quick and busy day... but it was so pretty and vibrate.

I have been going to Auburn for trail walks and runs...that is where I get my nature and mountain fix.   Even there sometimes I think I see too many humans.  I will be in search of a quieter place.  Somewhere where I can get lost in my thoughts without that many humans.  Not complaints...Humans are great.   

Remind me to tell you a story about my favorite wild Turkey... CT.
Have a lovely and blessed week.  Comment and say hi and let me know what you are up to.




January made me shiver.... (belated)


January 2017 came like no other January in a long time.  It has been colder than I recall and certainly wetter.  The rains came and came and kept coming.  I have zero complaints, I truly hope that those that were flooded and the auto accident victims have recovered. That is always my sadness when the bad weather causes monstrous disasters. However, feeling so excited that my state is wet and green and blessed with water.  

This particular January is like no other.  I feel the pain of the election, so many people are hurting, and defensive, offensive, and this seems to be from most no matter who they voted for.   I have the pain and those thoughts too...but for now, this blog isn't about that. It isn't that I don't care or don't have a voice.  I have a big opinion and a big voice.  It isn't that I am complacent, I have activities and a voice.  Just not here. 

My heart hurts and my soul feels the pain of the divisions, not just from my country, but all over the world.  I only ask from the universe that it is growing pains and the light and love will reign and we will all be happy citizens on this beautiful planet.   I always believe in hope, change and love.  I also believe in the goodness of people to unite and help each other.  We have it in us, we all have it inside.   I also trying and watching and correcting my comments, my tone, my hurtful comments, after all it begins within each of us.  

Silence is golden and Spring is coming.

January has been cold and it was remarkably beautiful here in Northern California.   Living in the Valley near the Sierras is a blessing that I am  always eternally grateful.   We don't get snow but on some days we had sunshine, to clouds, to rain, hail, and rainbows all in a few hours.  On my commute home I can see the snow covered Sierras shining brightly with the glow of the sunset.  My view doesn't last long as I have to turn soon after it all comes into view, so I make sure that I never miss that wonderful show that Mother Earth gives me each day.


 


 

And I have been busy!  I have been cooking and even knitting.  This past Sunday was my youngest Granddaughter's birthday and I got to make some quiche, baby quiche, bread and a lovely little poncho.  I can't wait to see her wear it.  

This is the week that I have to get out and get moving.... Marathon training 2017 begins.  I have a plan, this week is just a bunch of one mile jogs to get used to the fact that I have a lot of miles to add to my running.

I am excited about a few knitting projects.  My Gigantico Blanket project with my friend, and a lovely shawl/wrap for me. 

Birthday cooking and knitting.
It is fun to be busy cooking... especially for a special girl.



 

 Some "other" Bread.... (February)


 




Wednesday, January 11, 2017

Hello 2017 ....

Hello and Happy New Year.  

I ran out the old year  with my Newbie Trail Run.  So it was the perfect way to ring in the New Year.  January 1, 2017 found me retracing my steps  from December 18, with a longer distance and a shorter time. Yes...  The Hills really are alive with the sound of... everything.  Thank goodness it was not as cold this time.  But I also didn't stop for pictures.  (See last blog post). There were actually little differences except the dam was not as vigorous....

Until the floods of January 2017.  If you get a chance check out the Dam at Lake Clementine, Auburn CA now.   While we need the rain I know of many that have property loss, Damage, and couldn't even get to work for the eroded roads and flooding.   I send my best thoughts and wishes and prayers.   I wish that Mother Nature could learn a bit of balance...but I suppose she is only as nutty as.... Me.
What the heck is balance anyway....?

2017 - Resolutions...you ask?  Not really but no resolutions is no reason to NOT TRY.

So more healthy living, Yoga, Run, Walk,  Smile, Write, Read, less fat, less carbs, less wine...and a nice fresh fridge full of veggies.  So far this year has me making Asian foods.  Anyway possible to get those nutrient rich veggies into the body.    I made Thai Pad, two difference versions of fried rice, Chow mein, Jerk Chicken and fresh green beans.  Not in the same meal.     The new year has me consuming less, buying less and just focusing on family and my violin.

More violin and soap news soon...

Peace and love and just keeping being beautiful.

Less words and more pictures soon.